Thanksgiving Break

I GOT A DOG :) After years and years of trying to get my mom to let me have a dog I finally got a dog. He is so good!  It was Dad's birthday present, and his name is Marley.  I have two weeks left in the semester, and a TON of stuff to get done.  Life is good, I get to go to Florida for Christmas break.  I <3 the warmth/beach.  I got an early Christmas gift from Matt, diamond earrings.  They are perfect and I love them.  He is pretty good to me.  This is our second time spending the holidays together, which seems a little weird.  Time flies, I cant believe the semester and Christmas are almost over!!!  I am happy which is always good.

I am starting to get really nervous about teaching.  The more classes I take the more overwhelmed I get by all that is expected of teachers with a broken system.  I have to create these elaborate lessons that reach all different learners which take a lot of time.  But I need to get my kids ready to pass a STUPID test which has become more important then actually learning material.  BLAH.  We definitely should get paid more! lol I suppose I will just cross each bridge as I come to them!

oh and IU beat Purdue today in football :) Hoo hoo hoo Hoosiers!!!!

Midterm Check In!

 I was sick the first two months of school, which was just stupid annoying.  Things are getting overwhelming with school! I have a TON of group work which is a pain even if I like the people in the group.  My student teaching application is due this Thursday.  That is a little weird for me because it makes graduating from college seem that much closer. I am not sure if I am ready for that... maybe avoid real life and get my masters... lol :) We will see.  Less then 5 months until Im 21.  Im excited others do not think it is that big of a deal.  Family is good.  My brilliant amazing little sister got into Rose, and is excited to go play soccer there. Dad is rocking the jobs, and Mom is struggling through the many issues that teachers always struggle with.  Matt Brown is a pain but I love him :) He took the LSAT so pray that he rocked it!!! I can't even believe he will be done with his bachelors degree! Yikes.  Real life here we come.  Oh yeah and I am doing fantasy football, and beating all the boys :) hahaha. They are pretty POed.  I picked my team with the help of Matts friends, and Matt puts my people in.  I take the glory for the victory!!! It is very fun.  I am doing pretty well, life has its bumps but they are small and I am happy.

"HAPPINESS is a decision; it is not based on what's going on around us.  it's based SOLELY on what's going on inside of us.  Our happiness is based on the thoughts that we choose to give our attention to; the thoughts that we choose to harbor."

Junior Year

School started this week. GROOSSSSSS. I am living in the same place, Campus Corner. GROSSSS lol. Should be a great year. I was nervous for the year to start because most of my friends lived in Campus Corner. They all moved out and I am still here.  I had so much fun here last year :) it was a blast.  Now its just this shell of something I use to love.  But so far it hasn't been nearly as bad as I thought it would be. My lovely Matt Brown stays with me often, that makes me happier, and it a TON easier to like Campus Corner.  Every once in awhile I have crappy days.  But I am happy, and have been for a long time.  It is nice :)

Summer :)

I am working at a day care this summer. It is quite an experience.  I always thought I would loved all kids and my love for kids would trump their problems.  HA was i wrong. I have this little girl that drives me CRAZY. I am taking summer classes online, and Biology is kicking my butt. I hate science :/  The first week in august cant come fast enough to be done with the classes.  My mom has been awesome in trying to help me get everything done.  She is always supportive :) and just the best. I love her. I haven't done much this summer. Hanging out w/ my Matt Brown :D which is one of my favorite things to do anyway. He always amazes me in all the best ways. I cant complain to much. Hanging with my friends too, and that is always nice. I am excited to go back to Bloomington tho.  I can't believe i am going to be a junior. YIKES the time has gone fast!   I got a new iphone, which is Matthews doing.  But it is a lot of fun to have! Life is good. Thank You God :)

Thanks

One of my boyfriends friends are getting divorced... They are so young it makes me sad for them.   This weekend I have just been having thoughts about how sad the world really is, and how no one stays married, the few that do are rarely happy.  A kid at IU committed suicide this past week, and wasnt found for ten days... How sad is that that no one wondered where he was for 10 days and the only reason anyone found him was because he started to smell. 
But then I walk in the mall and see the cutest little baby or little girl.  I go to help with the Sunday school kids and even the littlest kids have the most brilliant answers to difficult questions.  This is why i want to teach.  There are so many sad things in the world, and most of the kids are innocent to all of them.  They are so pure, and loving.  I get to make a difference in hope that they grow up to fall in love and have all there little dreams come true.

It also makes me think about how unbelievably lucky I am to have so many people that love me. Every night my mom texts me i love you and goodnight. My boyfriend is with me all the time making me smile.  My friends are always calling me or texting me.  My family, and friends is always there for me. Thank you god for all that I have, and all that I am.

Friday

Its Friday, and I'm listening to  country music avoiding homework!  Judge me as you will, but it makes me think of summer...which is coming soon!
I saw Invictus last night at the IMU for free. :) good old IU. It was a really good movie I thought, I was inspired after. I kind of want to read a biography on Nelson Mandela now. I got a really cute dress today from American Eagle, I have been looking for a summer dress forever.  Now the good weather needs to stay so that I can wear it. Short but sweet today! Adios

Forgiveness liberates the soul. It
removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon-Invictus

Give me strength

Vacation was amazing. The bahamas were beautiful, and spending it with Matt was awesome. I wish we never would have come back tho. The harsh slap of reality came quickly, and painfully. It brought questions and heartache. I am slowly moving on, but my stomach feel sick everytime its said. I want to scream, everyday it comes to mind.... The truth of people, and the world...

O Lord,
In this time of need, strengthen me. You are my strength and my shield; You are my refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. I know, Father, that Your eyes go to and fro throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts long for You. The body grows weary, but my hope is in You to renew my strength.
I do not fear, for You are with me.

I am not dismayed or overwhelmed, for You are my God. I know You will strengthen me and help me; that You will uphold me with Your righteous hand. Even as the shadows of illness cover me, I feel the comfort of Your strength, Or Lord.

Amen.

School is coming to an end and I can't wait for summer... I am ready to be home. School is exhausting and becoming a little annoying. I am loving the nice weather. :) It makes the days so much easier in comparision to the ugly winter :(.