Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Religion
i go throught the motions of praise every sunday. i go to youth group& decon. so i profess to be christian. but i lack a belief in god. i wanna believe but i just think its kind of a stretch. maybe its because so much is attached to god and jesus. preconcieve notions of who or what they are. i think the bible has valuble lessons to teach&& noble rules to follow. but i dont believe everything in it. i go to church to learn these values and b/c i love my church family. do i need another reason to go? and does it make much sense to just pick and choose what you want to believe? are you still christian? idk religion in general is shaky for me. i dont understand how people are so strong in their faith. those who are so strong must have question figured out that i dont. or dont ask themselves the questions i ask. and those who have crisis convenantly turn to god when before they may not have believed. or the people that are holiday church goers. what is that honestly? i mean does it make u feel like ur a better person b/c u got ur church in for the year? then people who go directly by the bible the majority are hypocrites condiming everyone else without stoping to think who are they to condim and out cast people? are people just afraid of death and feel like they need heaven as a promise of a better place, or do they truely believe in all these things? The bible is just a book that who know how accuratly is written. may be its all the hype that is with religion. sometimes i feel like preachers are just actors trying to sell something to me. lol. I want so badly to be strong in faith and to worship with excitement but i dont know how. i dont know what to believe and i feel like i am wrong not to have a strong faith. [sorry that i am the worst speller ever!!!]
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
3 comments:
wow Cassy, you ask such great questions. You know, I share a belief that many people who profess the Christia faith act in very condemning, judgemental, and hypocritical ways. Which is one reason why I left the church for so long. Well, that and the fact that I thought churches were totally irrelevant in addressing the suffering in the world and in fact, caused much of the suffering.
I now believe that faith isn't so much having the answers, but in asking the questions. And one reason I go to church, is because I seek a safe place to ask the big questions: what is my purpose in life? what are we here for? etc. And one reason I am a minister is because I hope to create such safe places for others to ask these questions.
I found your blog thru Rachel's blog.
I just wanted to say, I recently rediscovered my relationship with God but the only advice I have is don't give up!
I know that looks corny but I don't know how else to express it...
Cassy, I found your blog through New North's blog. I hope you don't mind my commenting here.
If it's any comfort to you, I'm 26 years old and I'm asking all the same questions as you. :-) I grew up in church and I'm still a committed Christian, but everything surrounding God - religion, denominations, dogma/doctrine, etc - is so hard to sort through. I know that God is there, but everything else is up in the air for me.
I totally agree with Rachel's comment above - I'm finding that the more I'm honest with myself about these questions, the stronger my faith becomes. If you weren't wrestling with these questions, then how could you come to your own conclusions? How could your faith really be YOURS otherwise, you know?
When we're truly seeking God's will and His vision for us, God will show us. He knows your heart and He knows that as you become an adult, you're trying to figure out how all this fits together. God will give you discernment as to what to accept and reject as sound Christian teaching. You're right, there are a lot of hypocrites out there and people with misguided ideas.
God's grace is a LOT bigger than we humans give Him credit for. His love for his children reaches a lot wider than we give it credit for. Keep asking, keep wrestling, keep searching. Don't give up, Cassy. You're already travelling so much further than most; many people accept it all blindly and never bother to ask the questions.
God bless you!
Post a Comment