Ohhhh caring..

I'm pretty much done with my emotions. I know relationships are worth it however sometimes i just want to quit... My emotions and mind race all the time. I hate it. Its exhausting caring about people. Caring about your friends and the decisions they make, your sister and how harsh high school can be, your parents that have my world to deal with, and then the random people you just think about that have it so much harder then you...and finally the one im talking about is the boy. Maybe its just a part of being female...It drives me crazy, its annoying and stupid. But I cant stop, and I dont want to i just want it to be easier. I'm not sure even how to describe it. I feel like guys never feel that way tho. its like I want us to be able to do stuff separate but I just want to be happy with him all the time. I want to be the only thing on his mind...its gross and a little selfish...I am such a girl. FML



Totally worth it ;)

Junior Year.

My junior year is ending one year of school left. approximatly 200 days of school. I am so excited. But at the same time terrified. leaving this place is like leaving my whole life.my friends, my family. I have lived in the same place my whole life. This town has all my memories. my firsts. I spend time complaining about the things i hate about Avon. Traffic. High school Drama. some of the people. But that i am going to get where ever i go. I honestly dont not what i am going to do without it. Its safe. besides the bomb threats the past two weeks lol. Even then there is NO place like home. && this is mine. i know i will sparatically come back throughout college. however thank you loverly town of Avon for being my home. growing up anywhere else would have just not been the same. ♥