Prom is this weekend. Im going with a group of girl friends. It's always people ask who you are going with and you say a group of girls. then people give you the pitty look and change that to... its better that way ull have more fun. party...that makes me feel good. high school relationships are over rated. not many people stay together. they say they "love" someone but what does that mean when ur 17. is it the same kind of love you have when ur 25,35, or 40? or do they just say it b/c the are immature? what the point in dating someone u dont c urself marring?? i know what i want. so when i find it Bam. thats it. im picky...possibly unrealistic. i want the notebook romance. i want my husband to be willing to do nething for me as i would him. i build me a house with a wrap around porch. neways im boyfriends less. people that have term relationships suck. <3333im jealous.

Religion

i go throught the motions of praise every sunday. i go to youth group& decon. so i profess to be christian. but i lack a belief in god. i wanna believe but i just think its kind of a stretch. maybe its because so much is attached to god and jesus. preconcieve notions of who or what they are. i think the bible has valuble lessons to teach&& noble rules to follow. but i dont believe everything in it. i go to church to learn these values and b/c i love my church family. do i need another reason to go? and does it make much sense to just pick and choose what you want to believe? are you still christian? idk religion in general is shaky for me. i dont understand how people are so strong in their faith. those who are so strong must have question figured out that i dont. or dont ask themselves the questions i ask. and those who have crisis convenantly turn to god when before they may not have believed. or the people that are holiday church goers. what is that honestly? i mean does it make u feel like ur a better person b/c u got ur church in for the year? then people who go directly by the bible the majority are hypocrites condiming everyone else without stoping to think who are they to condim and out cast people? are people just afraid of death and feel like they need heaven as a promise of a better place, or do they truely believe in all these things? The bible is just a book that who know how accuratly is written. may be its all the hype that is with religion. sometimes i feel like preachers are just actors trying to sell something to me. lol. I want so badly to be strong in faith and to worship with excitement but i dont know how. i dont know what to believe and i feel like i am wrong not to have a strong faith. [sorry that i am the worst speller ever!!!]

there's a new wind in the Windy City: with the sibs

there's a new wind in the Windy City: with the sibs

Hello

so im not really a big blog person. i pretty much just made this to keep in touch with my friend rachel. lol sooo life is good. like 25 days left in school. prom may 5th which i am going with friends...pethetic way of saying noone asked...i could have just taken someone but i dont want to just take someone. well i cant really complain because there are people starving in africa right. i am blessed. Peace&& Love